reasonforconcern:

reasonforconcern:

hello i started a gofundme for my top surgery…

i’m not asking for the entire amount of the surgery but this will help me a lot. kind of embarrassing but i desperately need this surgery and cannot pay for it on my own. my insurance won’t pay for anything and i am assuming it’s because i am on a free low income one my state provides

i’ve currently saved up about $180 but that barely puts a dent in the price

https://www.gofundme.com/zqphe-top-surgery-for-julian

if you don’t want to donate through gofundme this is my paypal

cannot find my other post so i will just update this one. i have had to put all the money i had previously saved (not from donations, those are in a savings account that i will and have not touched) towards medical bills, my medication, and testosterone because my insurance is not currently covering them. i cannot afford to have even more bills go to collections.

i am relying almost entirely on donations at this point for this surgery. my parents cannot help me at all financially despite being otherwise supportive, they are poor and live pay check to pay check. i am not able to work more than 30 hours a week or my insurance will cut me off, they still pay for my weekly therapy sessions so i obviously do not want that to happen

the dysphoria i feel because of my chest is debilitating. lately it has been exceptionally bad, i often don’t want to leave my house even with a binder on. some people have asked for proof that i am transgender and considering the amount of scams on here i don’t mind sharing these

the first photo is a progress note from my first endocrinologist (who is now retired. he was 74) that was sent to my then primary care doctor, the second is my name change document

photo of me at 15 and pre T, photo of me now at 19 and a year and two months on T

tldr i’m a trans man in a bad financial situation and need help with funding a surgery that will give me a quality life

https://www.gofundme.com/zqphe-top-surgery-for-julian

alternative ways to donate:

https://cash.me/$zempoala

venmo: jajanken

leaveittotegan:

lumnie:

chemisquid:

dippersballoon:

I saw an opportunity and I took it

This is what they mean when they say life flashes before your eyes as you die

For those wondering, the song is ”Mr. Blue Sky” by ELO.

Perhaps someone beat me to it, but here are ALL of the featured vines, in order of appearance:

  1. I won’t hesitate bitch
  2. Hi my name is Tre and I have a basketball game tomorrow
  3. Whaddup, I’m Jared I’m 19 and I never fucking learned how 2 read
  4. Kermit the Frog jumps off building
  5. Fr e sh a voca do
  6. back at it again at Krispy Kreme
  7. There is only one thing worse than a rapist
  8. Club Jam (yes a really good book)
  9. At least the taco was free
  10. I am the Sand Guardian, guardian of the sand
  11. Grandma loves ping pong too much
  12. If your name is Junior
  13. Welcome to Target
  14. I’m just cooking pizza
  15. Cole Sprouse dress-up game
  16. On all levels except physical, I am a Wolf
  17. Kid hits ceiling of gym with rope (breaking free)
  18. Kid smacked by fly swatter
  19. Fuck it up Kenneth (my boy going to school)
  20. Um I’m not finished (Tyler the Creator)
  21. WE’RE BREAKING FREE
  22. SAIL
  23. I’m Squidward
  24. So I’m sitting there, barbecue sauce on my tiddies
  25. So no head? (breaking skateboard)
  26. Actually, Megan (I can’t sit anywhere)
  27. No off topic questions (Chris Christie)
  28. What the fuck, Richard
  29. Drop it like it’s hot (its just luke)
  30. Bored as shiiiiii
  31. Liberian accent (plasma globe)
  32. New haircut (Parker Kit Hill)
  33. Summertime sadness (chicken)
  34. More like hurricane TORTILLA
  35. I got an a-bor-tion
  36. All Around the World (TheJasminator)
  37. When there’s a cutie next to you at a red light
  38. Snake licks lollipop
  39. Accept yourself, love yourself
  40. Be whatever you wanna be
  41. Don’t touch Zac’s music (LENARR)
  42. Whoever threw that paper, your mom’s a ho
  43. Can I please get a waffle?
  44. Turn off the flash you fucking moron (Star Wars)
  45. Ebony Jenkins (shut up!)
  46. Kevin, watch the light dude
  47. Horse meditation
  48. A girl a dream & a clothing hanger
  49. Is that a weed? (911 microwave)
  50. Helium balloons (floating car)
  51. Fireplace fairy
  52. I’m your freestyle dance teacher
  53. I can’t believe you’ve done this
  54. Which way the Quiznos is
  55. Impossible paper toss shot
  56. Hemtube (dancing with cat)
  57. I nurture my skin (Shaq)
  58. Why are you running
  59. Happy birthday?
  60. Thicker than a bowl of oatmeal (courtroom)
  61. Farkle falling
  62. Fuck you (soda machine)
  63. Squash banana (the branch I was holding broke)
  64. Take On Me
  65. And now my sock is wet (water gun)
  66. All I ever wanted was some motherfuckin guala
  67. When there’s too much drama at school
  68. Two bros chillin in the Hot Tub
  69. What’s your name? (ouija board)
  70. Chillary Clinton (chillin in Cedar Rapids)
  71. Guy drops slurpee (7-Eleven)
  72. Girl scared of convertible car
  73. Guy who is self-conscious about his lisp (Rice Krispies Treats)
  74. Would you like the spider on your hand?
  75. Shopping cart crash
  76. We actually have the chip reader now
  77. I’M A GIRAFFE
  78. Dinner with Zayn Malik (Chihuahua eating spaghetti)

I HOPE IT’S HELPFUL TO SOMEONE! Peace ( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡°)

this gave me such a warm feeling i legit teared up no joke

Firealpaca Tutorial.

bubblepopmod:

I’m awful at explaining things, but heres my best go.

First things first, firealpaca is a new art program that is free.  You can download it in any language for mac or pc and it works pretty nicely.  You can download it here.

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Here is how I set up my artboard.  Tools are on the left, layers and a preview are on the right.  If you ever loose a window, you can click “windows” in the top.  You can find save, new file, and open file under “file.”   Undo, Redo, Copy, past, ect you can find under “edit.”  New layer, fill, clear, rotate, ect you can find under “layer.”  Select, Deselect, inverse, ect you can find under “select.” To have the pen or tool snap to a certain line and only draw in one direction, you can find under snap.  Color gives you the option of a bar or wheel.  "Tools" is basic tools, all of which you can find on the left of your screen as well.  "Windows" controls the different windows open such as layers, brush control, color, ect.  Help will find you certain tools incase you get lost or need assistance with a problem.  

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I am working with a mac, not a pc, however the set up and tools are pretty much the same from what I’ve heard.

 I’ll start off by explaining how to make a new page, the brushes, and the tools that come with Firealpaca.  Like most art programs, you can import different brushes and such to use.  It gives you a few basic brushes to start out.

You can either go to the drop down menu under “file” and select “new” to make a new file, or you can use command + N if you’re on a mac.

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This window will appear and you can choose the size of your file, the dpi, and the initial layer format (color or 8 bit).  I usually work in 2000×2000 unless I’m doing a commission, then it varies around 4000×4000.

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Here are the different brushes.  You can see their textures below.  If you want to edit any of the brushes, just double click on them and youll get a small page to edit the name, type, width, size, and opacity settings.

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Those are the main brushes I use when I’m drawing.  I use the pen for most things, but I like to paint with pencil and watercolor as well.  I have two custom brushes that I use for blood, but nothing else really.    The eraser brush erases and the firealpaca brush lets you draw with the firealpaca symbol.  I don’t ever use it so I didn’t include it.

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Firealpaca also gives you a nice little preview of the brushes when you’re using them.  Here you can change the size and the opacity of the brushes really quickly while drawing incase you need a thicker or thinner or less noticeable line.

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Above that I have my color palette.  I only have saved Bubble, Mod, Carousel, and GhostBunnies colors.  To add colors, you click that cute little page button.  To delete one, you click on it and click the trashcan button.  Be sure you add them in the order you want them because you cannot move the colors around.

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These are your tools.  They’re pretty basic. Pen for drawing, Eraser for erasing, Dot brush for pixel art, v for the normal arrow tool that I call the grab tool, shape tool for drawing basic shapes (shift does not keep them at the basic size so you will have to eye it), the bucket tool for pouring colors, gradient tool for basic two color gradients, select tool for selections, I dont know those next tools names, I think theyre drawing selection and erasing selection or something, but you can draw with them to make selections which is pretty cool.  I usually use the lasso tool though.  Text tool for text, however you are very limited with what you can do with text.  You have quite a few font options though!  hold down option to get the eye drop tool and hold space to be able to move around the drawing if youre zoomed in.  

I’ve included the quick keys so you don’t have to go over and click the button every time you need to use a certain tool.  Down below you can see the options you get with each tool.  The tool options appear at the top of the program and change depending on which tool you are on.

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For the pen and the eraser, you get the snap tool (quick keys 1,2,3,4 and 4) which just makes it so you can only draw straight lines in certain directions.  You can also draw a straight line by making a dot, holding down shift, and clicking where you want the straight line to go.  AntiAliasing makes the lines texturally smoother, and then line correction makes them visually smoother.

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The dot brush you can choose your pixel size, anywhere between 1 and 3.  This is good for if you’re doing pixel art.

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For the shape tool, you can choose your shape (you have rectangles, ellipses, and polygons), you once again can choose antialiasing or not, and for rectangles you can choose to have round corners and the percent of how round they are!  You can also edit the opacity of the shape.

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For the Bucket tool, you can reference either the canvas or the background.  Once again you can choose antialiasing or not, and then theres the expand option! This is important if you are going to be filling or coloring with the bucket tool! It will expand your coloring 0-3 pixels so you dont get that white line between the color and your outline.

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Gradients you can choose weather its Linear or circular and you can choose if its forground-background or just background.

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The select tool lets you select a certain part of the drawing, for example if you want to cut it out or move it.  It gives you four shape options, I usually find myself using the lasso tool when I’m cutting out certain parts of the drawing. If you grab a certain part and realize you suddenly want more, hold down shift while you are selecting and it will just add onto the selection instead of starting anew one.

If you are going to be moving your selection, you must have your move tool over the selected area or it will move the entire layer.

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For the drawing selection tools, your only option is antialiasing.

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Here is the right side of my screen.  I keep the navigator small and it just gives you a preview of the art board.  You can zoom in/out by clicking the magnifying glasses or command + +/-.  You can zoom to a certain selection by the blank magnifying glass.    You can twist the layer by pressing the circular arrows or keyboard right/left, and you can go back to the original right side-up by clicking that cool line circle thing.  

Then you get to layers which is very fun.  You can change the opacity of the layer with that pink bar.  Lower opacity means it will be clearer, higher opacity means it will be stronger.  I only change the opacity when I am trying to differentiate between layers or when I am drawing lineart over a sketch.

You have these lovely blending options.  

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I cant explain them without sounding dumb so I wont try, but Multiply makes the color darker, add will make the color almost white and it will make an airbrush look crazy bright. Great for lighting up sparkles or doing shines on the hair.  I dont use overlay or screen much.

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Protect alpha will protect the lines under it, a clipping layer will only let you draw on whatever its clipped to, and locking a layer will make it so you cannot draw on the layer at all.

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When making a layer, clicking the blank page will get you a new layer, clicking the 8 page will make you an 8 bit layer, clicking the two pages ontop of eachother will duplicate the layer you are on, clicking the page with an arrow will merge the layer to the lower one, and clicking the trashcan will delete the later.

Yeah that’s all I got.  I’m horrible at explaining things, so I’m sorry. xD but best of luck!

Go draw me a picture.